My birthday is literary 3 days, but 2 days in the UK.

This is why I hate my birthdays

I want to be honest with you, I know my birthday is literary 2 days from now. I am happy to be 21 but sad at the same time. I don't like saying this but I kind of hate celebrating my birthday. All the time when I celebrate it, It brings me down. It is like one year old on each birthday. Before I know it I'll be 40, I feel like my life is going too fast. I am sad. I want to live life a little, but I feel like I am wasting it. I am sorry that I feel this way. But I needed to come clean and say it.